it’s all about perception
May 6, 2012
SLEEP, sleep, beauty bright,
Dreaming in the joys of night;
Sleep, sleep; in thy sleep
Little sorrows sit and weep.
Sweet babe, in thy face
Soft desires I can trace,
Secret joys and secret smiles,
Little pretty infant wiles.
As thy softest limbs I feel,
Smiles as of the morning steal
O’er thy cheek, and o’er thy breast
Where thy little heart doth rest.
O the cunning wiles that creep
In thy little heart asleep!
When thy little heart doth wake,
Then the dreadful night shall break.
April 27, 2012
how often times do we give in to the times and the pressure that so often surrounds us? how has that pressure caused us to change? for the better or for the worse, i always believe that we make the choice to change.
there are however, things that do not change over time. that may be because we have deep rooted values that constantly drive us to stay for a cause and fight for what we believe in. I believe we have all fought for something in our lives, be it a loved one, for a just cause to overturn the wrong someone has unjustly bore.
I daresay I have fought many a battle in my life. Some out of pride, some for the right reasons. I have fought alongside my friends, my bros and sometimes for a brief period with my enemies. I can say that I would do whatever it takes to win.
Throughout all these battles, it has allowed me to see a few things very clearly. Who my true friends are! Who are those that would stand side by side and fight to the death with me. I have been judge but I have always risen above hate.
I never believe in one superior power and I fight for equality. Yes, granted, that there must be an authority above us. However, I fight when I see this “authority” abuse their given rights. There are some who have given up the fight along the way and simply bow to society pressure.
Those who assume the post of a leadership role and claim to “fight for change for the people” Those that lay the guilt trip on others when their plans don’t seem to be going the right way and wants to blame others. I’ve had enough! I don’t see the need to accommodate to your needs.
it’s been pent up for so long and it feels so good to finally let it out. i HATE people who claim to be fighting alongside you and then when your back is turn they give you a little backhanded bitchslap.. i cannot tolerate such people. i think this goes way back to trust. im a very distrusting person. perhaps its because the number of times i’ve been thrown under the bus and fed to the wolves that i’ve become this person.
you can’t blame me. i’m just being vigilant. I don’t completely trust alot of people. maybe there are alot of them out them with probably a little of my trust but not all. i keep only a few friends whom i truly trust. those that proven themselves by the war scars by fighting alongside with me. people i know who got my back. people who are willing to put me before themselves. these people i call my bros.
you notice i don’t bro alot of people. because the word bro is thrown around so loosely, its like a cheap whore now. i maintain the validity of the people i call bro. because not everybody has proven themselves. i’m skeptical, very and extremely skeptical.
maybe one day i’ll let go and find this ‘one’ everyone seeks for. but right now, i just want to be me. to be with the people who can accept me as who i really am. but be aware im constantly vigilant, guarding against the people whom i meet, and those who have thrown me under the bus.
February 16, 2012
the oldest profession is being a warrior. Wars were waged since time past. Man has this insatiable desire to get one over the other man. It’s no surprise this has evolved into a modern day phenomenal.
there’s now a need to not only get one over your opponent, but that indescribable urge to see them fail and rub it all over their faces. c’est la vie? i don’t know
destruction. what a friend or foe it can be. imagine this for me, will you, for a second. an office with a door leading to a shredding room. you carry into that room a box full of papers and stuff to shred. after a hard days work of toil and labour, you bring in this little minions ready for destruction.
As you start putting the paper through the shredding vanes and you hear the sound of destruction. that piece of A4 paper being decimated and torn bit by bit into nothingness. The loud rumbling of the metal structure “eating up” the paper.
You feel accomplished. You feel relaxed.
in one word, THERAPEUTIC
I’ve turned into a monster….
February 10, 2012
Yes, it can happen so quickly. Life as we know it can change in a blink of an eye. Unlikely friendships can blossom, important careers can be tossed aside, a long lost hope can be rekindled. Still, we should be grateful for whatever changes life throws at us. Because all too soon, the day will come when there are no changes left.
From the moment we wake up in the morning ’til our head hits the pillow at night, our lives are filled with questions. Most are easily answered and soon forgotten. But some questions are much harder to ask because we are so afraid of the answer. Will I be around to watch my children grow up? Am I making a mistake by marrying this woman? Could she ever truly love me? And what happens when we ask ourself the hard question and get the answer we’ve been hoping for? Well, that’s when happiness begins.
Passion. It’s a force so potent we still remember it long after it’s faded away. A drive so alluring it can push us into the arms of unexpected lovers. A sensation so overwhelming, it can knock down walls we’ve built to protect our hearts. A feeling so intense, it resurfaces even though we tried so hard to keep it buried. Yes, of all emotions, passion is the one that gives us a reason to live, and an excuse to commit all sorts of crimes.
February 4, 2012
Family. There is nothing more important. They’re the ones who show up when we are in trouble. The ones who push us to succeed. The ones who help keep our secrets. But what of those who have no family to rely on? What happens to those poor souls who have no loved ones to help them in their hour of need? Well, most learn to walk life’s road by themselves. But a sad few of us, simply stop trying.
People do good deeds for many reasons, but sometimes good deeds have bad consequences. Correcting a colleague’s mistake could breed resentment. Opening one’s home to a friend can damage that friendship. Trying to bring a spouse closer might push her further away. That’s why there’s an old expression about helping people – No good deed goes unpunished
Good deeds aren’t always done for the purest of reasons. We may be trying to impress. We may be acting out of guilt. We may be expecting something in return, but occasionally a good deed comes straight from the heart.
February 3, 2012
Yes, we often learn our most important lessons outside the classroom. The painful truth about the state of a relationship, the ugly cost of challenging authority, the sad fact that life’s colors aren’t always rosy, then are those who refuse to accept these important lessons. They simply wait to teach a lesson of their own.
There comes a time when we must expose our weaknesses. When our secrets can no longer remain private, when our solitude can no longer be denied, when our pain can no longer be ignored, but sometimes we feel so alone that a weaknesses we thought we’d overcome suddenly becomes too long to fight.
Keeping secrets is a lonely business. That’s why we all search for someone to confide in: an ally who will understand, an advisor who we can trust, a friend who will never judge.
Good friends are the ones who tell us the truth about ourselves… even when the truth might be something we’re reluctant to admit – that we still have a great deal to learn, that we sometimes need to ask for help, that we maybe overlooking a golden opportunity. Yes, hearing the truth can often set us on a different path, but we never know where that path might take us or who might be watching.
February 1, 2012
It’s strange how you know someone for many, many years but yet you don’t really know anything about him/her. It’s weird how we seem so close on the surface but in our hearts we question ourselves about one another.
The names that come to my mind without me having to look through my contact list is already enough to make me feel sad. There’s this Familiar Unfamiliarity, I know you; but I also don’t really know you at all.
How about coffee some day? Like start over. And this time, I really want to know you.
My name is Josiah, nice to meet you. You are?
January 10, 2012
I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS
January 2, 2012
Article adapted from Life BPC’s 1st Jan Weekly:
Walking Worthy of the Lord!
What is this all about? It is not just about our daily walk with God, but also about the way we live before the world as His people. It is about our manner of life in all areas – at home, at work, or school, and in church.It includes the things that we say or do in response to different kinds of circumstances, the way we handle our career and finances, and the way we handle our relationships with our loved ones, friends, colleagues and neighbours.
All these things ought to be carried out in a manner that is worthy of the LORD Himself. This means that nothing but the best will do. We who belong to the Lord cannot be content with mediocrity in Christian living if we know how awesome He really is. Will you aspire to a higher level of living – one that is worthy of the LORD?
Will you make every effort to pursue this glorious aspiration?
I pray that as the year passes on, I will be able to walk worthy of the LORD.
