delusions or illusions

I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS

thebigmac1991 — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 12:23:50 +0000

I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS I AM THE CHIEF OF SINNERS

Walking Worthy of the Lord

thebigmac1991 — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 12:18:38 +0000

Article adapted from Life BPC’s 1st Jan Weekly:

Walking Worthy of the Lord!

What is this all about? It is not just about our daily walk with God, but also about the way we live before the world as His people. It is about our manner of life in all areas – at home, at work, or school, and in church.It includes the things that we say or do in response to different kinds of circumstances, the way we handle our career and finances, and the way we handle our relationships with our loved ones, friends, colleagues and neighbours.

All these things ought to be carried out in a manner that is worthy of the LORD Himself. This means that nothing but the best will do. We who belong to the Lord cannot be content with mediocrity in Christian living if we know how awesome He really is. Will you aspire to a higher level of living – one that is worthy of the LORD?

Will you make every effort to pursue this glorious aspiration?

I pray that as the year passes on, I will be able to walk worthy of the LORD.

the truth or is that what you’ve been told

thebigmac1991 — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 08:05:24 +0000

i’ve thought about it, ive experienced it. i had my doubts and everything but I’m sure now. It’s not just me. It’s so many other people out there who are struggling with it. this facade “Le Family” puts up is so revolting.

it’s all going to be about just smiling and pretending everything is all right… right now i’m very thankful for the ability to read into stuff. to know that someone is upset about something . i probably can already lead a resistance against Le Family but I wont.

it’s the people who don’t test the system that don’t know how messed up the system really is…

what happened?

thebigmac1991 — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 13:41:44 +0000

it comes to that point in life where I take stock of my life.

this year I realized I’ve grown quite abit. I’ve also lost alot. I’ve lost many close friendships. Am I to blame? Did I not put in enough effort to maintain my relationships with others?

we used to be much closer friends a few years back. what happened?

the past

thebigmac1991 — Sun, 25 Dec 2011 13:36:52 +0000

it was so much simpler back then…

we would talk, go out for dinners and just chat and stay in touch.

things are different now, and i swear i will work hard to change it. i can feel this friendship going downhill but I will put my life on the line to get it back to where it was. I miss the old times alot.

sometimes it kills me softly but i just ignore the pain and smile pretending evreything is all right.

i’m alright with just a hi-bye friendship but not anymore. i want it to work again this friendship.

smell the roses?

thebigmac1991 — Sat, 17 Dec 2011 14:30:18 +0000

when i stop and observe the beauty, i see the thorns in the roses. smell the roses?

the truth will set you free

thebigmac1991 — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 16:53:28 +0000

hiding behind those masks and walls you create just to impress others with this false persona is just disgusting. I find it totally revolting and it has irked me. For so long, you put up a front. For so long, you use your false identity to criticize others and to break them down. It’s such an attention whore trait. I cannot stomach it.

You claim many things, but I’ve found out that it ain’t the truth. You cannot tell the truth about yourself already shows that you have a very weak and inferior personality complex. You lie and make up stories about your life. Don’t tell me how to live my life if your life is a complete and utter lie. Buck up dude!

With all due respect, UP YOURS! I don’t even know what to address you as now.I believe you go by one name now, and another a few years back. You’re too ashamed and too much of a coward to face the truth. You are nothing! ZILCH! You are not top of the food chain, you are just one scrawny little underling trying to impress the whole world.

Don’t forget Singapore is small, it is connected! People know each other, somehow or another, your friends are connected to my friend’s friends who in turn are connected to me. I know the whole truth now. I am nauseated. You can’t accept the pathetic person that you are so you run around and live a lie.

It’s no doubt your favourite song is ” Love the way you lie”. You’re just so full of yourself. Living a bid damn lie. You think by creating such nonsense we will love you? The only person who loves you is YOU! Get a grip dude!

We know your girlfriend from Australia doesn’t exist, your cousin doesn’t drive a Maserati, your mom doesn’t bring home 30 grand a month (she’s just a lowly part time cook), you don’t have a driving license. You’re just a pathetic fool!

I’m not incensed for all the insults you hurled at me, all the times you undermined me because now I know the truth. I’m just sorry that your sorry being still exists on earth. You crave the attention you don’t deserve cause you’re an attention whore! YOU DARN SLUT!

I’m repulsed. Remember Karma’s a bitch. One day you’ll be bit in the arse so hard you better know you deserve it.

“If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people.”
― Virginia Woolf

bye bye

thebigmac1991 — Mon, 14 Nov 2011 23:34:03 +0000

我要长大了… bye bye everybody

au revoir!

Protected: as we go on, we remember all the times we had together

thebigmac1991 — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 06:10:51 +0000

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Happy Heartz

thebigmac1991 — Fri, 11 Nov 2011 13:37:39 +0000

I left a part of myself at Happy Hearts and I know it cause it pains me. I haven’t felt this kind of emotional pain for so long. I’ve loved my time there and I’ve loved every bit of it.

Happy Heartz will always be where my heart belongs…